Alex Ruger is 7 months old!!

Where did the time go? It feels like just yesterday that I was bringing my little 7lbs 4 ounce baby boy home. Now he is a 15lbs little crawler!! He is moving everywhere!! He loves to try to get the dog food.. yeah I keep forgetting he is mobile and not picking up the bowl when I am done feeding little miss Emma. He hasn't found the water bowl yet, but I guess it's just a matter of time, for now he just wants Emma's food.

As for food, he has pretty much decided that he pretty much just wants solid food throughout the day, He will nurse like 3 times through the day, then a few time at night (which is more just comfort nursing) He loves just about anything I give him... well that is only if it's something I will eat. He does not like baby food, maybe he doesn't like the texture, Miguel was the same way too. Pizza, bread, waffles, banana's and pancakes are his favorite things to eat.

Alex still finds his brother amusing, and loves Miguel for now.. Miguel Loves Alex, but is starting to find that sharing his toys is really not that fun now that Alex wants them.  Before, when it didn't matter to Alex it was ok because Alex could care less about having something in his hand. Now Miguel is finding that Alex wants the toys just as much as he does.

Pretty soon we will be thinking about baby proofing from a little walker, and then his 1st birthday.

stay away.....

I have been staying off the computer as much as possible. I had found myself Obsessing over pregnancy website, and getting down about everyone being pregnant.
It has helped, but I am still finding myself depressed. I also wanted to stay off of Facebook cause I know everyone doesn't want to see me consistently post about being depressed. I had to start taking my natural remedy for depression again. I am hoping I feel it soon. I just started two days ago, yet I forgot to take them yesterday. 
What helps is having people to keep me busy, My boys, My mom, My friends, anyone really. But it's great to have my mom or friend here as well because when Miguel starts to act up rather than it really stressing me out I have someone to help me.


I was so afraid this was going to happen. When Oscar and I first started talking about trying for our last baby in September, before the miscarriage before anything ever happened. I had said I was scared about a miscarriage sending me back  into a spiral in depression.  Well look at where I am. Maybe not the spiral I thought but I am sure back in my depression. I am trying to do what I can to get out of my funk.  Any suggestions are welcomed!